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INQUIRING MINDS WANNA KNOW!

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  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Animals - Neon Trees
  • Watching: My screen and students around me
  • Eating: turkey and cheese on white
  • Drinking: coffee
So much has happened the end of last year and the beginning of this one. I have loved and I have lost, but have not given up on my education. It seems to be the only stable part of my life, that I have any control over. There was someone very special to me that I'm so glad was a part of my life. He brought me happiness, filled my void and many beautiful memories. He did nothing but good. Why did it end? He had his reasons and I understand that I just had to let go and hope for the best. This was the first relationship I had that fit my definition of perfect. Though it is over, I still have hope that someday he may come back to me. If not, I will survive. 

I have obtained many new skills in college and have been excited about putting them all to use.  I find myself further interested in the field I'm studying. It would be nice to share my thoughts with someone going through what I'm going through. Oddly enough, I haven't quite clicked with anyone else in my degree program. There aren't too many of us in this field, but I'm hoping to click with someone soon. Finding an internship is the next phase of this education that I am currently getting ready for. I have only a few pieces in mind I'd like to add to my portfolio, but continue to work at creating more.

It's been great having something to put my aesthetics towards constructively. I may have my down moments due to my lost love, but I am fighting through it! 
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: The Black Crowes - She Talks To Angels
  • Reading: The words I type
  • Watching: My screen
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: Should I? LOL
  • Drinking: coffee
For about the past month, I have actually been so exhausted that I've been passing out earlier then my first quarter of college.  I'm usually a night owl staying up between 1 to 3a.m. and waking up at 4:30 for school. I just haven't had any energy for that lifestyle lately. Could it be an age factor??? Shhhh-UT UUP! No way! lol I don't think it would happen quite so suddenly. I actually believe it's because of all the stress I've been under. I never seem to realize how much I do in my life until I sit down and think of things I have to do and then remember what I've already done. Let me tell you...I give props to all the single mom and dads who do it all on their own. I'm not quite there yet, but hopefully soon, will be.  I've begun my third quarter in college and am doing pretty good, so far. This will probably be my most challenging quarter to date. I'm a bit nervous that I will totally fail, but I really need to start working to get the home I desire to live in for a bit. It isn't located in the area I prefer to live in, much less the town, BUT, I am totally willing to deal with it. As long as we have a place to call our own, it's all I really want in my life right now. I've relied on husbands for far too long and am ready to do it all on my own and finally know what it feels like to be all those single mom and dads who have it "figured out."

I have been overwhelmed with so much I have to do and wish that I had time to do the things I like to do. I hadn't written in my journal in so long. I also haven't written any poetry, although there has been much in the back of my mind to write. I have worked on a little art, but have been having trouble uploading it to my page. ~sigh~ 

So...About algebra...I ended up with an incomplete. I was very disappointed in myself, but at least have one more quarter to finish it up and pass the test. Let's hope I pass it this time! lol Oh my goodness. I am having coffee and should probably rest a little now. It's almost 2 a.m. and I need to wake up at 4:30! LOL I missed these kind of nights! 

To be, or not to be...

Wed Aug 28, 2013, 10:40 AM
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: Ah-HA- Take On Me
  • Reading: people
  • Watching: Dora the Explorer
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: diet green tea
How far should we take analytic behavior? Human nature causes us to analyze many decisions we make in life. When we are young, we analyze whether or not we should go up to people, or whether or not we should eat certain foods. As we get older, we begin to analyze a little more. We begin to analyze people further in the decisiveness of whether or not we should associate with certain people. When we learn to drive, we begin to analyze how close it too close or too fast to follow near other vehicles.  We always analyze when things are too hot or too cold. As we experience more situations in life, especially in relationships, do we take analyzing to a higher level? I've known few who don't, but many who do. Through communication barriers, we often misconstrue what people are trying to tell us. We then begin to analyze what it is they really mean. We do this knowing that hardly anyone, these days, says what they actually mean. Often times, people tip toe around subjects or simply have a different dialect, amplifying the chances of interpreting an idea differently. We are all guilty of misconceiving one another. But are there some of us who do this far too often? Is there a such idea as spending far too much time over-analyzing?  How healthy is it to analyze to a point of removing yourself from a possibility of any relationship and is it even possible to always be right about our perception of all people? I believe that we all make mistakes and misconceive people at times. I believe that if we spend too much time analyzing each individual we come across, we are liable to pass up a golden opportunity to really get to know the people who are worth knowing. Pushing ourselves away from everyone, emotionally, can be quite devastating and lonely. Chances in life are the only way to live, or else we wouldn't really be living life. Just because we've been hurt before and feel like there may not be anyone out there for us, doesn't make it true. Think twice before ceasing to live a life of chances based on a belief that every person out there has bad intentions. We all have intentions, doesn't make them all bad...

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FAILURE

Sun Aug 4, 2013, 11:26 PM
I cannot believe I am saying this....I am going to fail my math course. I started out really slow and lost and have a professor from hell, who doesn't seem to really want to help enough. I've been stood up by him once for tutoring, but on my own, have just now figured out more less what I'm supposed to do. But I realize, I am so far into my class that I'm actually behind by a sick amount and about to have to take a mid-term that I know I will fail. I just haven't done enough modules to be prepared enough to pass. I'm hating life right now and am thinking about just getting a 9-5 shitty job just to pay bills, like most others do....

Did I mention I'm hating life???




Created By Amy Parks
  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: the clicking from my keyboard
  • Reading: My failure
  • Watching: a great future quickly fading
  • Drinking: if only......

Distant Stares

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 20, 2013, 12:56 PM
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: Bruno Mars-Just The Way You Are
  • Watching: beautiful people
A question I have been wanting answered for quite sometime. Something I do not understand, even a little. Why is it that people, men in particular, will stare from a distance and either turn away or smile at me when I see them, but never come up to me and talk?  If he is so curious or amazed by  my looks, intellect or both, then why not talk to me to get to know if they would like to maybe ask me out sometime.  Instead, they just stare and look away, or smile, but never come up to me.  I would say that's a pretty strong indication that they will never have a chance to get to know me and also will never give me the same chance. Or...is there another reason why men do that?  When do you know when to go up to a man and talk to them. I mean they all have different personalitites. So...some might be shy and some might actualy be staring because they don't think I am attractive.  How does this socializing thing work? I can easily talk to people in general, but never know if I've gone too far in a conversation.  I tend to be loud and very open and don't really hold back very much. I suppose I have to admit that this could be why some people really don't like me. I don't lie or cheat or steal.  I am just loud. I try not to be obnoxious, but everyone's idea of obnoxious may be a little different. If they give a strong indication that I am annoying them. I try to be respectful enough to leave them alone or quiet down a bit.  I don't think I should have to change my personality for anyone and notice that I cater less and less everyday. I just don't care anymore. I just really want to meet people (men) who can accept me for who I am and think I am beautiful in every way.  I have met a couple, but I don't get to see them hardly. Circumstances beyond my control...Sad, but true.  It's a bit lonely on my side of the spectrum.  very colorful, but lonely. If I meet colorful men, who are a bit like me, they usually are not interested because I'm not "beautiful" or "perfect" enough by my looks.  It's like....I'm in a category all on my own. LONELY...lol

Still confusing, are those who smile at me.  Why stare, smile, but never come up to talk to me? I'll never understand it....


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Suzy
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"Nothing...I hear nothing."

I will say this: I have addicted myself to these llamas (pronounced by me"yama's") ;) I would love for you to gift me with these cuties!
On another note...Please do leave comments and suggestions on my page or in my individual deviations. I'd much appreciate the feedback! After all, isn't that why most of us post our work on this sight??? :)
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:iconterios117:
Hey! Happy Birthday! :D
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Thanks for the llama:D (Big Grin) 
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jrwenzel Nov 26, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
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Hey! Thanks for the llama badge! :)
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Tigedelic-Emma Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank You For The Favorites <3
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thanks for watching meee :D
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CupofCharlie Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the favourite on 'Empty Room'! :D :hug:
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Tigedelic-Emma Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Ma'am , I Need To See Your Driver's Licence .
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EmergencyEyeWash Jun 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
why hello, its been awhile!
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MiniSweetGhostGirl Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconichigosmileplz:Many thanks for the llama.:iconichismileplz:
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Medoriko Apr 23, 2013  Student Writer
You have been featured here:

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CherryChan94 Apr 23, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
thanks!
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thank you soo much for your kind comment. Made my night. :)
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thanks for the points!
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Artsouls143 Apr 1, 2013  Professional Filmographer
thanks a lot for llama Suzy
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AestheticallyCraved Mar 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh please...Thank you for sharing. It is a fantastic photo! :heart:
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Tigedelic-Emma Mar 31, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
[link] Check Iiiiit c:
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:la::+fav:Thanks for the Fav!:+fav::la:
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Tigedelic-Emma Mar 29, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank You For The Favorite , Kind Stranger Whom I Am Watching At The Very Moment .
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Thanks for the fav XD
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atomicrick Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
llama'd ya!
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allixson Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ty for the:iconllama2plz:
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Happy Birthday dear Suzy,I wish to you lot of health, happiness, love,money and success
in your life.Best wishes for you from heart.Spend this day surrounded whit friends,family
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