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Educational Stress

:heart: I have been working hard to learn as much as I can to someday land a job in Advertising. I hardly have time to write (much less post) new work to share. I hope to have some time, soon enough to share with you all. :heart:


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My first entry on Tallenge

Thu Jul 3, 2014, 12:28 PM
  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Katy Tiz - The Big Bang
  • Watching: The thoughts and dreams inside my head
  • Eating: Franks swimming in tomato sauce and onions
  • Drinking: diet soda

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:heart: I had been told of this website and invited to post my literature here as the person who messaged me loved my writing. It has been many months since I received that message, but have finally signed up for an account months ago and just now entered my first piece. I would love to have you all take some time to check out my entry and vote for it if you like.
Tallenge Poetry Entry
The poem I have entered is under my literature folder in my gallery if you'd like to read it first. I do give an explanation of why I wrote this under my Tallenge profile for further information. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this journal entry and a thank you to those who choose to take a look at my Tallenge entry. Lotsaluv!!! :heart:

:heart: Special Thanks to :iconshattered-writer: (whom over a year ago) wrote a critique on this particular poem. Since then, I have endured many struggles and challenges that have kept me from writing as often as I wanted to, but inspired me to continue to never give up or forget. I wanted to say that throughout this past year+ I do, now and again, read this critique to keep focused on my writing and has helped me during a couple of classes I've taken such as my storyboarding/scriptwriting and Copywriting. They were touch and certainly challenged my aesthetic writing. Thank you much :iconshattered-writer: and hope that life, on your end, is always satisfying! :heart:

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Animals - Neon Trees
  • Watching: My screen and students around me
  • Eating: turkey and cheese on white
  • Drinking: coffee
So much has happened the end of last year and the beginning of this one. I have loved and I have lost, but have not given up on my education. It seems to be the only stable part of my life, that I have any control over. There was someone very special to me that I'm so glad was a part of my life. He brought me happiness, filled my void and many beautiful memories. He did nothing but good. Why did it end? He had his reasons and I understand that I just had to let go and hope for the best. This was the first relationship I had that fit my definition of perfect. Though it is over, I still have hope that someday he may come back to me. If not, I will survive. 

I have obtained many new skills in college and have been excited about putting them all to use.  I find myself further interested in the field I'm studying. It would be nice to share my thoughts with someone going through what I'm going through. Oddly enough, I haven't quite clicked with anyone else in my degree program. There aren't too many of us in this field, but I'm hoping to click with someone soon. Finding an internship is the next phase of this education that I am currently getting ready for. I have only a few pieces in mind I'd like to add to my portfolio, but continue to work at creating more.

It's been great having something to put my aesthetics towards constructively. I may have my down moments due to my lost love, but I am fighting through it! 
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: The Black Crowes - She Talks To Angels
  • Reading: The words I type
  • Watching: My screen
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: Should I? LOL
  • Drinking: coffee
For about the past month, I have actually been so exhausted that I've been passing out earlier then my first quarter of college.  I'm usually a night owl staying up between 1 to 3a.m. and waking up at 4:30 for school. I just haven't had any energy for that lifestyle lately. Could it be an age factor??? Shhhh-UT UUP! No way! lol I don't think it would happen quite so suddenly. I actually believe it's because of all the stress I've been under. I never seem to realize how much I do in my life until I sit down and think of things I have to do and then remember what I've already done. Let me tell you...I give props to all the single mom and dads who do it all on their own. I'm not quite there yet, but hopefully soon, will be.  I've begun my third quarter in college and am doing pretty good, so far. This will probably be my most challenging quarter to date. I'm a bit nervous that I will totally fail, but I really need to start working to get the home I desire to live in for a bit. It isn't located in the area I prefer to live in, much less the town, BUT, I am totally willing to deal with it. As long as we have a place to call our own, it's all I really want in my life right now. I've relied on husbands for far too long and am ready to do it all on my own and finally know what it feels like to be all those single mom and dads who have it "figured out."

I have been overwhelmed with so much I have to do and wish that I had time to do the things I like to do. I hadn't written in my journal in so long. I also haven't written any poetry, although there has been much in the back of my mind to write. I have worked on a little art, but have been having trouble uploading it to my page. ~sigh~ 

So...About algebra...I ended up with an incomplete. I was very disappointed in myself, but at least have one more quarter to finish it up and pass the test. Let's hope I pass it this time! lol Oh my goodness. I am having coffee and should probably rest a little now. It's almost 2 a.m. and I need to wake up at 4:30! LOL I missed these kind of nights! 

To be, or not to be...

Wed Aug 28, 2013, 10:40 AM
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: Ah-HA- Take On Me
  • Reading: people
  • Watching: Dora the Explorer
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: diet green tea
How far should we take analytic behavior? Human nature causes us to analyze many decisions we make in life. When we are young, we analyze whether or not we should go up to people, or whether or not we should eat certain foods. As we get older, we begin to analyze a little more. We begin to analyze people further in the decisiveness of whether or not we should associate with certain people. When we learn to drive, we begin to analyze how close it too close or too fast to follow near other vehicles.  We always analyze when things are too hot or too cold. As we experience more situations in life, especially in relationships, do we take analyzing to a higher level? I've known few who don't, but many who do. Through communication barriers, we often misconstrue what people are trying to tell us. We then begin to analyze what it is they really mean. We do this knowing that hardly anyone, these days, says what they actually mean. Often times, people tip toe around subjects or simply have a different dialect, amplifying the chances of interpreting an idea differently. We are all guilty of misconceiving one another. But are there some of us who do this far too often? Is there a such idea as spending far too much time over-analyzing?  How healthy is it to analyze to a point of removing yourself from a possibility of any relationship and is it even possible to always be right about our perception of all people? I believe that we all make mistakes and misconceive people at times. I believe that if we spend too much time analyzing each individual we come across, we are liable to pass up a golden opportunity to really get to know the people who are worth knowing. Pushing ourselves away from everyone, emotionally, can be quite devastating and lonely. Chances in life are the only way to live, or else we wouldn't really be living life. Just because we've been hurt before and feel like there may not be anyone out there for us, doesn't make it true. Think twice before ceasing to live a life of chances based on a belief that every person out there has bad intentions. We all have intentions, doesn't make them all bad...



Sun Aug 4, 2013, 11:26 PM
I cannot believe I am saying this....I am going to fail my math course. I started out really slow and lost and have a professor from hell, who doesn't seem to really want to help enough. I've been stood up by him once for tutoring, but on my own, have just now figured out more less what I'm supposed to do. But I realize, I am so far into my class that I'm actually behind by a sick amount and about to have to take a mid-term that I know I will fail. I just haven't done enough modules to be prepared enough to pass. I'm hating life right now and am thinking about just getting a 9-5 shitty job just to pay bills, like most others do....

Did I mention I'm hating life???

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  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: the clicking from my keyboard
  • Reading: My failure
  • Watching: a great future quickly fading
  • Drinking: if only......


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I will say this: I have addicted myself to these llamas (pronounced by me"yama's") ;) I would love for you to gift me with these cuties!
On another note...Please do leave comments and suggestions on my page or in my individual deviations. I'd much appreciate the feedback! After all, isn't that why most of us post our work on this sight??? :)


"Living here is the equivalent to death. It produces painstakingly inflicted morose feelings that eventually lead to a state of comatose that gradually drains every ounce of aesthetic endeavor in me. Without feeding the need for my crave of aesthetics, I am but an empty shell where in the middle once resided a soul full of audacious vitality." -me


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